


today was fun with OG13! we met at 12pm then headed to Swenson's for lunch. whole long row of tables for 24 ppl. Then we played concentration(the actions version) and it was so funny! we needed some entertainment so i decided to start the game. not LAME okay. haha. and the bill came up to $300+ i heard. haha. they must be damn happy they made so much $$$ today x) aft lunch we headed to marina sq. wanted to bowl or play pool. we waited for bowling lanes but in the end i had to rush off to church. and Yusong kindly escotted me to the mrt station. thanks dude (:
i was just talking to a friend online... and somehow we touched on the topic of me being cheerful all the time. but the thing tt affected me was tt he was feeling depressed, and that i cldnt do much to cheer him up. it makes me feel bad. most of the time i go crazy & jump ard like mad like im self-entertaining... like wat my OG mates always say. but i act tt way just to make everyone happy. i wish i cld be as happy-go-lucky as i want to be. but i do have moments of depression. in fact if there's no one ard me to entertain, i'll think abt stuff and get all depressed & everything. honestly, i have a lot of troubles myself & i feel bottled up all the time. sometimes also when i act happy and cheerful, i will actually be more carefree. it also makes me happy if my crazy behaviour makes ppl ard me feel happier. and its also nice to hear a old fren say '"i miss ur hyper-ness" or "i was so sian just now, but when u came i suddenly become so hyper also. haha" or "thanks so much u really cheered me up again" i feel good myself when ppl come to confide in me, cause it means im trustable with secrets & whatnot & im actually helping ppl! recently a friend told me tt yeah, he cld talk to me cuz im good at listening, and he remembered the first time we had a chat in the classroom & he needed a listening ear. i was surprised he remembered cuz i myself forgot abt it. Sometimes we need to hear such sweet things ((:
so people out there who think the end of the world is here, go blast ur music now & start jumping ard & pretend tt u're enjoying urself. and if u need someone to talk to, im always here. thank god for emails, msn, phones, smses.
but the only one person whom i really wish cld trust me enough to confide in me hasnt been talking to me. and tt makes me sad.