scary... my house is vibrating cuz of the works going in the church juz behind. its veh near. suparr noisy. and can even feel the vibation wen sitting on the toilet bowl. can u imagine how it'd be lyk? hmm... i woke up lyk so early diz morning cuz they were so noisy! slept really late last nite waiting fer my parents 2 come back home frm australia. ..& of cuz 2 collect my pressiez. hehex. my mom bought me some sutff... & a roxy wallet. i'd say its not veh nice lah. haha. tts y i din trust my mom's taste! lols. bt at least they dun haf diz design in spore lah. i hope. so its kinda consolation. haha. bt its too plain... oh wells. nvm. den my mom said she din buy any bag frm me cuz there werent any nice ones. she took a pic of the ripcurl bag 2 show me.. & she said it isnt nice. i was lyk "wth?! its so damn nicee & dun even haf diz design in spore! arghhy." i'd rather exchange the wallet fer the bag. -.-" oh wells. nxt time i'll tag along wen they go aus agn. which wont be too long cuz we go ther lyk every 2 yrs? le. so we'll prob go ther agn nxt yr? oh wells. i hope. i'll definitely buy a lot of roxy & ripcurl stuff bac man. haha. my mom also bought back BONDS fer me. haha. doubt u noe wads it.. nvm.. kinda personal stuff bah. lols. BONDS RULE. (= the designs are sooooo niceee!! whee hah.
I'll lock up my heart and throw away the key

writtern @6:41 PM

I know that I've been taking you for granted
For the longest time
All you wanted was someone who really cares
And I didn't even
Notice you were there
I promise I'll never ever
Make that same mistake not twice
That was then
This is now
Took some time to come around
All what I wanna do
Is try again
Show you how
I know that it's all about Givin' attention to you
I was a fool for way too long
What you wanted, I could not see
That was then This is now
Took some time to figure out
Love is all you need

writtern @11:11 PM

omg. i SNEAKED out of the hse todae. feelin' guilty nw. haha. my parents left diz morning fer australia. so ther xiang shou nv bring me:( wanna go ther shop! BUT i made out a whole list fer my mom 2 buy back fer me. esp Bonds! & i reallly hope tt my mom can find the Roxy shop ther. which i highly doubt she can looking at her map reading skills. x) whaha. so i din ask permission & sneaked out :) first time... feel so... naughty! wen they call tonite, im juz gonna say ive stayed hme watching tv :) wah. my feet damn pain. was on both feet whole day... went orchard... walk & walk & walk. was sOmeBody's tour guide. haha. lata gonna give him a test. see whether he rmb the places nort. haha. went 2 places where held some 'unhappy memories' which totally ruined my mood. haha. but wAtEvA. its was fun... den after came back straight away went jogging wif dawn... dunno y i juz wanted 2 go jogging rite away. haha. muz haf a breather...
hmm.. since my parents away.. muz chen ji... take advantage go out. haha. im gonna go out as much as i can after skool man... whaha. i bet my brothers r also planning some party lah.. i sure hope my sec bro wld.. so i can drink a bit of alcohol.. haha. last time he let me try.. bt it was nt nice.. haha. hope he'll open another bottle. hehh.
ive been watching the vcd Lavender tt jess lent me.. lauz. i'v ebeen crying EvErY single episode cann... since epi 1... haha. damn sad lah. den i came 2 realise tt im lyk one of the character...the gal tt only replaces the guy's heart. oh wells. wAtEvA. i lovee my fingernails =D
jessieee! if u're reading diz, im still waiting fer my Bacardi!! :) -smooch.
So now after all I've said and done
Maybe I'm the one to blame but…
To think that you could be the one
Well it didn't work out that way

writtern @6:53 PM

haix. dunno whether 2 be sad or happy. feelin' both. fer diff reasons. haha.
happieee cuz of my chem & chi results.. lyk first time in my life chi got A loh.. haha. every1 was lyk shocked. haha. yayy. din expect 2 get A myself..
sometimes im pissed. angry. frustrated. bt disappointed? i dunno... i cant be. and i shldnt in. my mind is made up. sometimes its betta not 2 noe some stuff... I DONT WANNA HEAR THEM. i dunno... feel lyk crying... i dunnooo. wad 2 do. wad 2 choose. dunno wad my heart wans. im as confused as any lAme pRawn wld be in the desert. i noe u do some things on purpose.. nw hearing other couple's probs... i tink its all a misunderstanding. yesh. misunderstanding is aLwAyS the cause. sigh. esp wen they tink their partner is flirting ard. come 2 tink of it. u are. lyk so obvious. every1 tinks so lohh. haha. wAtEvA. dun wanna noe. dun care.
Get out; leave; right now
It's the end of you and me
It's too late (now)and I can't wait
For you to be gone
Cause I know about her and I wonder (why)How I bought all the lies
You said that you would treat me right
But you was just a waste of time

i hate you. its been 2 yrs. TWO idiotic yrs. 370days. damnit. how am i supposed 2 take it wen u juz come back lyk tt? wad do u expect me 2 do?? nw u've gt me confused. wen i was juz abt 2 carry on wif life wif some1 else- hAtE you.

Tell me why you're lookin so confused When I'm the one who didn't know the truth
FoRget those sweet-nothinns;

writtern @9:36 PM

dont noe wat im tinking.
somehow nowadays we r getting back 2 how we used 2 be.
i wont mind if we r juz gonna be frens.
bt sometimes u juz freak me out. at least u arent as bad as last time.
ive even run out of excuses fer not going out wif u.
bt still im afraid.
im afraid tt.. well... wat if my heart is moved. wat if i juz go weak in the knees again.
wat iF i get huRt again?
//my head's spinning

writtern @10:17 PM

todae went out wif athena.tannya.jaslyn.sotong.& sotong's fren, sam. i was lyk so early lah.. cuz they had 2 come after skool... den me jas & tannya went 2 the top floor of cine... den athena came & we watched her frm above. she din noe she was under surveillence. haha. so furnie. den we walked ard 2 heeren & taka. dunno wads up wif athena & her yoghurt diet. sigh* anw she's lyk super tall i hate 2 stand beside her. bt thruout the whole day she wAs in fact walking beside me. lols. felt so... short den i haf ever been. haha. i made her stand 1 step down wen we were on the escalator. haha. bleahx. stoopid athena.. todae hit me lyk dunno how many million times.. wen she first saw me he whacked me 3 times so hard loh.. lauz. she everyday go slap her teddy b4 she slps i tink. >.< so painn. she so poor thing.. also kena bullied by jas. haha. tt jaslyn nv changed a bit at all.. haha. she even wanted 2 play CATCHING in taka. lols. dunno whether she kidding nort. anw she's still as lame as ever lah. (she'd prob kill me if she reads diz) :) den we went far east took neos. come 2 tink of it.. i shld haf pulled athena's hair up wen she was posing in front of me.. haha. :P nvm. she'ss still rmb me by my LAME PRAWN & my MULTI-COLOURED nails. im sure she had a great time toking 2 them! :) gonna mis u guys! muackx! whaha.
yew dont noe how muchh u mean 2 mee.

writtern @9:46 PM

gosh. im in painnn. ytd was superrr unlucky. sigh. & supar embarrassing. yup. embarrassing & here i am proclaiming it 2 everyone. ritee. anw i was going 2 orchard... den as i was crossing the overhead bridge the bus was reaching the bus stop le.. so i ran 2 catch it loh. darn. i nv liked chasing vehicles. but i was late areadi. so anw i din see a step at the bus stop. den i tripped & fell. damnnit. so freaking embarrassing. nw i had bruises on my knee. and so many st margs on the freaking bus. den wen i moved into the bus... the gal standing infront of me wif her fren is frm my pri skool de.. so glad i din really noe her. i pretended nt 2 noe her lah. after tt fall. darn. she wld haf seen it. lucky i had my cap on. so i juz looked down. lols. den after i came down the bus.. i wanted 2 retie my hair. den my bag dropped & my rubber band dropped into the drain too. darn. how nice. den i felt so hot cuz my hair was down. den.. i cant rmb wad other unlucky thing happened. i juz noe tt the start of the day was terrible areadi. haix. darn. my knee hurts. arghhy. met qian at far east. i bought 2 more bottles of nail polish. yayy. nail polish rocks!!! whee hah! she din let me buy yellow :( haha. anw i haf yellow le. but i dun lyk my yellow leh. i lyk tt yellow. nw all of my 10 fingers haf diff colours cuz i used the tester 2 try on my nails. haha. so cool. 10 diff colours!! whee hah. i juz realised tt the pink on my middle finger is veh nice. bt i din buy it. ugh. nvm. nxt time i go back far east in gonna get it. seems lyk every holiday i buy nail polish. haha. den we walk until my feet pain sia. den went back. on the way walking back hme... so coincidental danson came out of the cab cuz his mom dropped him off ther so she cld go somewhere else. den we walked hme tgt loh. he made me carry his bag loh. lauz. ungentleman. haha. nvm.. reached my doorstep le i refused 2 give him back the bag. muahaha. shld haf made him buy me lunch. heh. everytime we meet the first thing we tok abt is holidaez. we always try 2 make each other jealous & see whose skool hol longer. lol. lame lah i noe. but wateva.
aye. dunno wad 2 do todae. siann. & i dunno y bt my butt hurts. arghy. cant sTaNd the maids. i dun lyk it wen they're both in the hse. they're jealous of each other i tell u. & always use me 2 show the other who closer 2 me. dOtz. they keep telling the other wad i lyk.. & wad i always do at hme... as if they really noe me well. arghy. so sickening.
aye. shall stop here le. cya peeps.

writtern @11:37 AM

WHEE HAHH!!! exams r overrr! YESHH! im lyk so whee-hah glad. dun needa lock myself in the basement everynite anymore. its lyk being in prison wif 4 walls ard & cnnt see outside. haha. bt sometimes i cheat. cuz instead of studying(which my parents tink im doing) i watch tv. haha. but once my mom caught me. haha. i din expect her 2 come down & check on me. scared me. haha. whee hah happyyy exams r overr!! yayy.
after the last physics paper went out wif char, jan & jess. ate sakae sushi. so furnie. dunno wads wif the octopus. den walked ard. i managed 2 persuade them 2 go zara. haha. bleahx. zara's nice loh. bt i forgot tt taka branch no kids section! ahhh. wasted my time tryin 2 persuade them. -.-" zara rocks. so does roxy. hehh. & they really ENJOYED the lame prawn joke. LOL. whee hah happy exams r over!
ytd accompanied my bro go doctor's. den dropped by the lib while waiting. borrowed some bks. bt dun tink gonna read them all. haha. out of tt 6 bks.. i tink im gonna read lyk 2 or 3. heh. den we went holland v walk walk. so long nv go out le. whee hah happy exams r over! my bro bought a J.LO shirt fer his gf. i din noe j.lo had her own fashion line. lols. or either tt i forgot. sry. a bit erm slow. haha. den the casher asked izzit fer me. den instead fer his gf. lauz. my bro nv pamper me 1. hmphy. always bullie.
OH DEAR. im running late! gotta get ready go out.
can i repeat myself pls? im WHEE HAH happy!!! exams r overrr!!!

//unbreak my heart

writtern @11:22 AM

lalalaaa. todae's emath paper sucked. whaha. who cares. the last paper is tmr. im too happy looking forward 2 it den i cant be bothered by emath. anw no use crying over spilt milk. i was prepared 2 flunk it even since lyk paper 1. paper1 was terrible i gave up & din even revise fer paper2. oh wells. im so happy nw.. fer no reason. haha. tmr last paper! yeshhh. & i havent started studying fer physics. so dead. & here i am. still can come online. hehh.
met Stuart(not stuart little. but he IS small anw.) on the bus. he's so shortt. so so small size & he looks so cute in long pants. haha. really lohh. aye. im nutts. i cant waitt fer tmr! whee haaa! i saw the SICC club magazine juz nw. deborah was in it loh. so damn pro. aye. too bad i quit golf. i find it boring anw. but playing once in a while is fun. tink im gonna make my way down 2 the club sumtime. got new gym. whee. definitely gonna try it out. made a date wif dawn areadi. after my exams we're going 2 the gym 2 burn off wadeva we gained by munching away while we studied. whaha. teeribleeee. anw. whee. cant wait fer our nxt tai-tai outing too. hehh.
wheeee~
and the reason is yew.

writtern @2:26 PM

YESHH!! *jumps for joy* today is THE DAY... ... my maid comes back!!!! wheee hahh!!! lalala... no more housework fer me! actually i havent been doing much anyway. cuz im let off thanks 2 exams! whahha. anyway... its betta wif a maid. we cant take another day. wheeee~ ((:
juz came back frm church. saw tt cute boy again. hes so shuai lohh. hahh. anw. todae was a total slack. gosh. i feel so guilty.nw its 7:30pm areadi. act i planned 2 study lyk siao todae.. but my studying plans were disrupted. looks lyk i hafta push my studying marathon 2 tmr. hehh. todae went 2 the elizabeth hotel wif the Poon family fer lunch... spent so longgg ther loh. as usual everytime we meet we always take a LOT of pix. as if we nv seen each other fer yrs. we'd juz keep snapping & snapping.. den we went into the toilet... snapped pix WIF the toilet bowl. lol. cutee. anw den we were posing wif the toilet bowl. den suddenly it juz flushed by itself. cuz automatic de mah. there were tt loud scary flushing sound. den we got a shock & we 3 screamed. lol. damn furnie loh... den wen we went out.. raffles said he cld hear us scream. lol. stoopid loh. hehh. den after snapping pix we played pool. hahh. i suck. so embarrassing.
gosh. do u noe how HAPPY i am tt SITI is COMING BACK?! im lyk.. so excited! whahaha. since she's been gone... the hse has been sooo dirty.although we had another maid come lyk 3 times a week. but.. the hse is still filthy. cuz wen another maid comes she doesnt really haf time 2 clean the hse. she had 2 cook & do the laundry. & diz few days there were workers coming too. there r soo many spiers in the hse. i got freaked out so many times. bt i juz left them alone. cuz im sccared 2 go near them. & a few days back... there was diz HUGE cockroach in the basement. i totally freaked out & started screaming lah. den i jumped on the chair & watched my bro try 2 smack! it wif newspaper. haha. den it kept running ard. my bro kept chasing. & i? i kept screaming. lols. i HATE cockroaches. or any other insects. wif SITI back.. life wld be SO MUCH BETTA. ((:
oh wells. shld stop here or im gonna go on abt how TERRIBLE life is w/o SITI. but it really is! anw... after i enter diz blog entry... im gonna start on my studying marathon. which means... i wld stay. really STAY in the basment fer the nxt many many hrs. unless i come out fer my meals or 2 take stuff(eg. food) i need food 2 keep me awake. gosh. i hate exam periods. i juz keep munching away. ahh. & all those chocs 2 fill me up cuz ther's no 1 2 cook fer me! tts y im stuffing myself wif junk food. sigh. anw. the basement's great. it can be my hotel room! whaha. there's a mini fridge(filled wif chocs (: ) & 2 packets of chips & many bottles of liquor/soft drinks & tv & radio & telephone & toilet & a sofa & a BED. yup. an extra bed. haha. so it can be my 'apartment' hahh. i used 2 be afraid of the basment. din dare 2 go down myself. but i had no choice 1 nite wen i was studying outside & there were antflies & lizards ard. eewww. so i moved. 2 the basment! & realised it isnt tt bad. BUT i still dun dare 2 open tt toilet door. haha. im afraid of the toilet. so its kinda useless lah. i always go upstairs 1 if i really need too. tt toilet is creeppy. haha.
SITI IS COMING BACK SOON!!!! (((((((((((: (: (: (: (: (: (:
//all about yeww.

writtern @7:32 PM

wheee. i juz remembered!!! 5 more days SITI is coming back!!! whee hahh!!! cant wait! gosh.. life w/o a maid is crrapp. sigh. exams start tmr!! darn. such a long weekend. i cld be out nw. im so frustrated. sat nite every1 was having fun. my bro brought so many frens back 4 party. den opposite neighbour also got guests.. den they sit outside laf & laf... den dawn & diane keep coming out 2 suan me... bt they're nice.. cuz they no exam. den pity me. kept offering me food once in a while. gt cookies... ice cream... wah. im gonna go fatter. sigh. anw.. so every1 was having fun.. & ther i was.. sitting out in the balcony.. mugging under the dark blue sky all my myself. having 2 hear all the laughter ard. my bro's frens.. drinking downstairs & laf SO LOUD. they're a bunch of spoilt kids lah.. drive the parent's car.. BMW... Volvo... den they were lyk. so spoilt. nw reconsidering whether wanna go ACJC not. haha. jkjk. i sTiLl wanna go ther. lauz. i studied until 3am loh. bt covered so little things only! bek chek. den i went fer a walk outside at 1.25am. by myself. so scary. so dark. & no soul ard. tts y i only went fer 5 mins. hahh.
ytd i burn midnite oil until 2 only. sad lah.. last nite no mood or stars. tts y cnnt study. no companions. i've been noticiing the sky everynite.. i tink its vehh beAUtiful nature. dawn & diane keep making fun of me. say i keep staring at the sky. haha.
40 kinds of sadness wen u're gone/-

writtern @12:48 PM