aye. one whole week blog once. so busy. darn. the long weekend is not long enuff... last friday went 2 watch Shall we dance. its so niceee. feel lyk dancing. haha.
my bro enlisted into NS on saturdayy! whahaha. went 2 send him off. i haf the whole house 2 myself in the day. whaha. peace at last. but hor... the hse veh quiet leh.... no 1.. den i'll feel veh lonely if my bros dun come back.. both in ns... lauz. den at nite veh scary leh. aye.
yeshhh. diz yr is my Confirmation year!!! finally. whaha. im gonna be confirmed.. im gonna be confirmed... im gonna be a true roman catholic all moi life! yEahhh. & no more cat. class. can slp in on sundays. haha. one more yr. juz one more yr! its gonna be a bz yr in church.. a lot of stuff going on. got camp... den retreat... den rehearsals... & stuff lah. aye. after church rushed 2 gwc & meet char, lwl & wei jian. juz meet up fer lunch :/ i went 2 see Zara again. lauz. nt much variety at the kids section loh. saw diz green skirt. act veh nicee.. bt scared hard 2 match also...
pinkyyyyy. ok. lame. haha. daryl calls her pinky. how sweeeetttt. 1,2,3! "awwwww...tts so sweet..." hehe. i noe wad he's gonna say back... bt that's tOtally nt true kz. stoopid daryl. anyhow make up things =P bleah. pinkieeeee. aye. so tired... had netball training... they waste a lot of time loh... lauz. they were all lyk chatting away.. den we din train much loh...i juz hope we'll play betta on wed. & i totally sucked todae... cant throw properly... cant catch... & i dun haf the energy 2 play... i mean... its lyk...internally dun feel lyk playing.. bt i really wanna play... haiz. nvm. got hit by the ball 4 times todae summore. lauz. so blur until lyk tt. twice on my hEad summore loh.. sho pain. hmph. oh yeahh. we also sang bdae song & cut cake fer yi min.. turn 15 liaoz.. so old... todae whole day keep saying she feels old.. haha. i'll be joining her soon... bt got stoopid sec 3 camp! grrr. anw happie bdae minz again. hope u had a great day!


`everyytime ii tink of it, i pinch myself...cuz i dun believe its truee tt sumone lyk yew. lurves me too... /but now its all over. never to be. i made a mistake. n i hate myself even mur;

writtern @5:56 PM

aye, my mouth tired liao. haf been entertaining my bro wif my 'beautiful' singing while he's eating dinner. haha. run out of songs le. muz go learn more. aye. todae last training b4 the matches... wednesday leh! jing zhang. yesh. finally got our jersey. aye... so rEd. aye. ytd went great world. den went Zara. wahliaoz. half the shop empty cuz they gonna get new stock. ugh. den went esprit. saw diz skirt.. really nice.. bt $70. so exp... bt im gonna get tt fer new yr. i hope. im gonna try 2 make my mom buy it fer me. heh.
todae had our fIrsT SS lesson... the tcr's complexion is so nice loh... fer a male... is so nice lohh. hmph. envious. haha.
ughhh i cant do diz stpd Amath at all! haizz. gonna fail man... ahhhh. cant wait fer fri.. feel lyk going out lehh.
Truth is- Fantasia
(Truth is) I never got over you
(Truth is)
Wish I was standing in her shoes
(Truth is) and when it's all said and done,
Guess I'm still I love with you
(Truth is) I never should have let you go
(Truth is) and it's killing me cause, now I know
(Truth is) and when it's all said and done, Guess I'm still in love with you
Now the truth is, it hurts
But I know that the fault's mine
Cause I let him go
Tried to get over it,
but it's messed up
He's not mine

writtern @8:05 PM

haix... i juz tot abt it... & realised how stoopid i was... arghyyy. hate myself. why whyyyy am i so stpd...haix. i feel lyk.. UGH. where's everybody wen i need a shoulder 2 cry on? & tt sickening justin always playing his game. tok tok halfway den nv reply. ugh. so irritating. unfortunately he's the only 1 tt noes abt it... haha. cuz he seems 2 be the only 1 who listens. haha. & im still feeling UGH. bottled up is the rite word... i cant kkeep everything inside.. maybe i shld write a letter & let it go out into the sea... & feel betta. i hope. eee. dun tok abt seas. read the newspaper todae. gt an article abt ghosts in Phuket. all the dead ppl come bac den can hear noises. eeeeeeee. haiz. they seem 2 be more fated tgt anw. i shldnt be 'extra-ed'. i shld juz forget abt it.. listen 2 justin & dun tink abt it cuz ther's no point. bt justin! how can u say tt! hmphy. im still hoping it'll repeat :) --*still believeing. hehehe. i noe there's other pebbles on the beach... bt... the rest juz disappears. yuppp.
lalala.
haf been listening 2 'ji de yao wang ji' by S.H.E the whole time on the com... haha. tts the rite song fer diz moment. & dunno y... listen 2 it a lot hor... make me feel veh sad.. lyk wanna cry lyk tt. haha. u guys will hear me sing it in skool. whahaha. aye. tmr got netball training fer the 12. unfair the rest dun need train. haha. i feel lyk jogging ard the estate nw... bt the sun so hot lehz. argh.

writtern @5:17 PM

ahh...today so slack.. only had chem tuition den nv touch any books liaoz... aye... how 2 finish all the hw by tmr. haizz... & my stpd chem tcr give so much hw loh.. wah liaoz.
todae went 2 novena den went paragon 2 find chi new yr clothes. my mom wants me 2 wear the chinese clothing lyk cheong sam or sth. but eEeeww! i dun lyk it... she everytime force me 2 wear de... hmph. dun care. diz yr im not gonna buy any. haha. den see how she make me wear. bleh. den after tt we went 2 SICC gym. hah! broke my own record. 32mins. yeahh!! tt time during netball we ran 26mins33secs & joanne said tt was our record. bt i run in the gym lyk nt so tiring as running in the sun leh. maybe tts why can run longer. haha. a bit unfair test. anyway i feel lyk running again tmr... dunno y the sudden urge to run ard the estate. i hope tmr dawn free 2 run wif me. i'll try 2 make it a point 2 go 2 the gym or run ard the estate every weekend. haha. make build up my stamina. so weak. anw i go sicc gt chance of looking at shuai guys... all so rich summore.. maybe i'll get my chance. lols. JK ok... bleh. bt seriously... tts the best place 2 find one. haha. bleh. =P anw we shldnt go fer looks or money. LovE is wad we shld be looking fer. haha. someone wif a beautiful soul. "i dun wan my love 2 go 2 waste; i want u & ur beautiful soul~" jesse mccartney. after gym we went 2 bathe at the toilet. the toilet is damn nice & damn big lah...tts my fav toilet. haha. sicc toilets r veh nice. hehe.
aye. tmr gonna be a bz day too... gotta go shopping fer some things... more earrings. heh. and wanna go Zara too. aye. tired liao. gonna slp early tonite. nitey nite~

writtern @10:20 PM

eMoTiOnAl -Diana DeGarmoSometimes I get emotional
Sometimes I do some stupid things
Something I say what I should keep inside
Sometimes I’m sad about everything
Sometimes I’m mad and break some things
Sorry times ten but you just got in the way
Don’t get up now
Running away
I wont hurt you
Sometimes I’m just a pain
And that’s the way it is
That’s just the way I am
Sometimes I feel like crying
Laying down and dying
That’s when I need you
Life is always easy
But sometimes I’m just scared to leave me
That’s when I feel… emotional……
You say I’m just impossible
Totally unpredictable
I’m just a girl, get used to it
No big deal
You cant change me
Why would you try
I’m no angel, but I can make you smile
Sometimes I feel like crying
Laying down and dying
That’s when I need you

writtern @10:21 PM

lauz. i watching some sth lyk hip hop dance videos wif my bro. they dance so well. so sexyy & so cool. if onli i can dance lyk them.. damn cool sia. haha. how abt ballet? lols.
lauz... todae still havent change seat. still stuck wif lwl. beTtA change diz week arh... or he's gonna influence my innocence. hehe. he darn bian tai loh. dunno wad he oBsErVe mann... anw todae had geog test.. gonna fail liaoz. haha. heck care.
last nite went over 2 e DY's place fer dinner.. pot luck. lols. hahaha. dawn in outward bound skool nw.. bet she's having trouble carrying her stuff or running away frm the insects. whahaha. *wonders how she's gonna survive* lols. poor thing... bt im looking forward 2 our turn... it sounds fun. if - the insects & dirt & the heavy load den it'll really be so wonderful. im most afraid of insects. hehe.
eeeee. im still tinking of tt nitemare of vampires tt i had on sat nite. it was darn scary loh. scariest nitemare in such a long time. tt i woke up in the middle of it. haha. it was quite stpd... started wif diz 2 weird monstrous looking dogs tt were let freed by some person.. den the dogs go bite somebody.. den tt somebody became vampire...(dun ask me how dogs can make a person a vampire) den tt somebody started sucking ppl.. & one by one become vampire... lols. den many scenes happened at a shopping mall... where the vampires were chasing me... dawn & diane was in my nitemare also loh.. haha. den we lost the vampires who were after us & went 2 hide at the back of the building.. den our parents came in a car & we drove back 2 hotel. den at hotel we checked 2 make sure no 1 became a vampire. lols. veh lame lah. dun wanna say liao. veh long nitemare.. eeeee... sccared lehz.
#u dOn't really wanna noe. & u dOnt really wanna help.

writtern @5:20 PM

yesh! i've long awaited diz weekend! its so stressful in skool. ughhh. ytd damn furnie... tt christina brought faeces wif her on her shoes everywhere she went. haha. she's so unlucky. & she onli realised it in the chem lab. haha. & i tink ytd wld be the last day i'll be sitting wf lwl. kinda glad. haha. dun need listen 2 him rant abt chio-bus & his sickening mind. bt hor.. quite fun lah... he's one of a kind. the onli topic in his life is chio bus -- concluded by jess. haha. i hope if change seat den my place wld be betta. nt worst. ytd also had netball... wah. scary leh. mrs yong suddenly lyk volcano. she was damn fierce wen they playing court game loh. she scream until damn loud. lyk gonna lose her voice liao. den wen the 12 team players train rite. miao sia cried loh. so poor thing. stress on court. they were so serious. den i defend her also scared. eeee. so scary. nxt time train skool team den they so serious i veh scared leh.
ahh. tmr starting chem tuition.i scared leh. male tcr. come my hse de. arghyyy. i haTe 1-1 tuitions!
Trademark-Only love
But only love can say - try again or walk away But I believe for you and me The sun will shine one day So I'll just play my part And pray you'll have a change of heart But I can't make you see it through That's something only love can do

writtern @11:41 AM

wah.... damn sleepy todae... during geog lesson i cld haf fallen aslp... it was sooo bOringgg... todae had math & eng test... lauz..im gonna fail my math sia...eng a lot wrong also i tink... ahhh. im gonna fail my first math test of 2005. man... i tink diz yr is worst den 2003. 2003 was a baddd yr. den start of 2005 so bad liao.. man... diz sucks. aye... nth much 2 say lohhh... i got a piece of gossip wanna share wif jess... forgot 2 tell her juz nw... it lame lah.. bt i juz feel lyk telling her. haha.dawn wld be so excited if she noes i've gt gossip. bt too bad she doesnt noe the ppl involved. hahaaa. sianzzz. so much hw.... mannnn! oh yeahh.. im happy wif my geog class... can get 2 be wif more 2H ppl... but y no 2H gals?! ugh. anw gt at least gt some ppl. & tzu long. i hope he nv change...make the class funner. if nt skool's really gonna be so boring. 3H is lyk so quiet...no fun de...den summore so hardworking loh. haix. miss 2H '04.
anw i read it... so furnie.. ok. maybe ther's nt a joke or part of one in it. bt wen reading it i juz cldnt help lafing 2 myself... lol. its so furnieee! den i tink the boy sitting opposite me tot im crazy or sth.. giggling 2 myself fer no reason. haha. maybe its nt gd news but i feel a bit 'lighter' nw & so happy. im still smiling 2 myself abt it. lols. kinda glad things turned out lyk diz. haha. i tink i've caught the lafing gas. haha. i've gt the netball urge. suddenly feel lyk running & jumping. yesh.. tmr gt netball! i hope dun commit stepping again.
i suddenly feel so happy.. im weird. usually someone in my situation wld sob & cry. bt nt 4 me... haha. nw ppl come tell me their love problems. kaoz. lols. so interesting.. hmm...haha. im crazyy... lalala. i betta go bathe nw. byee!

writtern @5:34 PM

haix. im really stressed up wif a math... i cant do a complete sum by myself. haix. looks lyk im really gonna fail. lauz. todae mrs koh put us into groups den nw lwl sitting beside me. den all the girls all gone.. lauz.. so i onli haf him 2 tok 2... budden.. so weird. den he idiot... dun wanna teach me one.. beside me everytime onli how 2 tok abt gurls. >.< he's liiving in his romantic lovey-dovey fantasies. everytime tink abt boy & gal onli. lyk during chi lesson tcr asked wad else is 'xiang dui or dui xiang'. den he say boy&gal. -.-" stpd. oh yeah... juz nw got the chi test... im gonna fail the sec compre man. ughhh. den tt ron go tear dunno wad paper into pieces den nw all ard my tablke got small pieces of paper. lauz. cant he throw sumwhere... den ask him pick he dun wanna pick up summore..show me aTtiTude summore... wad is diz man... if im made 2 pick them up tmr ritez... im gonna... strangle him. hmph.
haizzzz... gt math hw... but i dun feel lyk doing nw... een if i tried also cnnt get the ans 1.. last nite started doing the 6 qns at 9pm. den i dun even noe how 2 do 1. so i ask lwl. den he explain 2 me a bit liao juz tell me use the formula lah... den 10.15 lyk tt i went bac 2 try doing... den until 11.40 i StIlL havent completed any sum. not one complete qn done. ughhh i always get stuck halfway. or dun even noe how 2 start. haizz... den todae in skool veh tired.. during chi wanna slp liao.. nt becuz its boring. .diz tcr is way more fun den mr wong. but the class juz too quiet... no 1 lyk say sth & joke or wad. haix.

shoulda woulda coulda
Fool if I would now forsake the opportunities are fate
I know I'm right where I belong
But sometimes when I'm not so strong I..
How I wish I, wish I'd done a little bit more
Now " Shoulda woulda coulda," means I'm out of tim
eCoz "Shoulda woulda coulda", can't change your mind
And I wonder, wonder what I'm gonna do
"Shoulda woulda coulda" are the last words of a fool

im stressed wif everything... everything... bt ure the onli 1 who noes abt it. bt u wont even console me nw. if diz is ur definition of "friendship"... den so be it. im nt gonna bother u anymore since u dun care.
-lalala-
sian-ed. eh... i realised tt dawn nv call me fer 3 days areadi leh i tink. since we came back frm japan she's been calling me everyday. nw nv call le.. awwww... maybe i shld call her den sing 2 her. whahaha. ning jing de xia tian.. tian kong zhong fan xing dian dian...

writtern @4:24 PM

WAHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!! i tell u i wanna cry le... im so so DeAd. im gonna fail sec 3 & im gonna drop a.math. wahhh... my math last yr suck areadi. diz yr got A math die liao loh... todae first lesson wif lim bun. baka. he go so damn fast. i cant catch anything he says! although it was last yr's simultaneous equations problem. & i forgot everything plus the long holiday break my brain was nt working. so slow abit mah. hehe. den suddenly he start den go so damn fast! kaoz. im soo gonna fail math. damnnit. oh shucks! lata go physics tuition!!! havent do hw!!! die. anw i also cnnt do. i dun understand at all!!!! cuz the lesson wen she started teaching the class on tt topic i was in japan.. so i missed the intro. den last week i was late also.. den she started first & i cldnt catch upp!! im so so dead diz yr. haiz... y dOeSnT aNyThiNG go the way i want it to?! wahhh...
haix. got so much hw 2 do... haix. i betta go try 2 read the math tb. i seem 2 be the onli 1 who is slow behind on math. haix........ & im still so pIsSed wif myself. lauuuzzzz!!! todae netball i stepping dunno how many times.. uncountable sia... den my throwing sucks also...i caused the team 2 lose so many balls! y cAnT i juz gEt my StEpPiNg rItE?!?! arghyyy. & surprisely i gt 2 be one of the 12... i tot jing xin wld be the one instead... she shld be... she's obviously betta den me. i tink she'll replace me instead in the nxt 2 weeks.
the onli relief i haf todae is tt i lyk our chi tcr. she's nice... dun need worry so much abt being chi rep liaoz. haha. guess LWL was rite. leave things in "his" hands. 'ask, and u shall be given' bt i dun tink i'll ever get wat i want...maybe nt meant 2 be i guess? wei she me bu ba ni bao jing. bt im juz fine with or without. whahahahhaahaaa. man, life ROCKS. yup. life is beautiful. im gonna haf diz mindset frm tmr onwards. or maybe the day after. haix... oh wait. nO sIghInG! dawn!!! lets add 'no sighing' into the list of "NOs".
1) no evil
2) no smoking
3) no drugs
4) no gossiping.
5) no sighing. it'll help us live life happier :)

writtern @5:31 PM

todae first day of skool. nt good!!!! firstly im seated RITE in FRONT. in the center of the classrm. n tt is NOT gd at all. i hope the seating changes. secondly, im the fReAkiNg CHINESE rep. rite... u wont believe tt. i noe. every1 laughed wen they heard tt. including me. wad a joke man. my chi is worst in class & im the rep. rItE... summopre the tcr frm China. how am i supposed 2 understand wad she says wen i dun even understnad mr wong! i bet she'll speak wif tt accent & veh fast. oh man. im so dead. no 1's ther 2 help me le. ahhhh. rite. & all lydia does is LAF. see! she laughed too! wah liao...
lyk can life get any worst? i dunno whether tt person read it... bt i hope so... no reply wadsoever... guess its impossible nw. haix. bt i dun regret giving it...fer the first time in my life. i juz hope everything goes back 2 normal. rite. tts all i hope fer. well.... life goes on as usual...
i hope tmr is a betta day...
i wasnt feeling well during netball... duno why... juz felt so weak & tired & sad... im fREAKkking pissed(imitates White Chicks) wif everything going on rite nw. haix. & no 1 noes abt it. i guess i hafta be my own counsellor... cuz i dun tink we'll be as close as b4.
well... tts all fer nw folks... hope u guys enjoy ur upper sec daez...
rite... & nw lydia's angry wif me cuz im typing diz blog & din reply her on msn fer awhile. mann!

writtern @9:05 PM

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!
2005!!! goodbye to 2004!
& yup. no more 2H'04. quite sad... anw its a new life in sec 3 nxt yr!!! kinda looking forward 2 it. ok look. im nt looking forward to school lessons. but im trying 2 be positive abt it kz. i really hope 2005 will be a much better year. 2004 has been a year filled wif equal amounts of happiness & sadness. ok. maybe a little more sadness. but... nonetheless. i hope 2005 will be filled wif more joy & peace in the world. esp. fer those who are in grief becuz of the tsunamis. & well. hope my life is betta tOo! & i dun make the stpd mistakes again. rite. stOopid mistakes.
last nite went uncle Sam's hse as we do every year... but it rained earlier so it kinda dampen our spirits cuz we cldnt do our usual stuff lyk eat outdoors & sit on the grass & play & swing. the 'spirit' juz wasnt as high as last yr's. becuz outside was wet, we ate inside the house. it was biggg. so it can fit so many peeps lah. & we ate & gossiped(abt the same couple!) & played cards & did penalties. heng i lose so i din hafta do penalty... but alicia lost & she had 2 KISS me!!! heng it was on the cheek though. but still!!! eEeEwwww!!! i was hoping it was frm a guy instead. on new year's day. how romantic. lols. jk! den we still played wif fireworks at midnite & did our usual 'campfire' thingy. & popped champagne. & all the guys juz got drunk. rite. the same thing happens every yr. & my dad even encouraged us 2 drink wine! it tasted awful. but i sipped some red wine & champagne. rite. so much more alcohol den barcadi. heez.
oh rite. juz nw lydia dropped by 2 pass me my christmas present. a big roxy pencilcase all the way frm australia!!! wad i always wanted! man! she rockz! lols. im gonna use it on the first day of skool. if i got time 2 pack. heez. thnx lyd!!!

writtern @9:38 PM