*cough cough* ah-hem. ughh dis cough is killing moi!!! today feelin so great... dis morning went 2 macritchie 2 jog... i was made 2 by my parents... woke up at 7am... we jogged ard SICC...  todae dunno where all the monkeys went... nv even see 1.. shld haf a lot de. only saw squirells.. but they're soo cute! den after jogging went 2 hit some balls at the driving range... i improved leh!!! hehe.. or either tt im juz lucky. my mom wans me 2 take up golf lessons again.. but no thanks... i can hardly cope liaoz... haiz.. tmr got skool... i hope it turns out ok.... damn scared leh.... i feel exactly lyk a 5 yr old who doesnt want 2 go skool

im coming back to the heart of worship
and its all abt u, its all abt u, jesus
im sorry, lord, for the things i've made
wen its all abt u, its all abt u, jesus

writtern @2:17 PM

ohh wHee~ i feel good! hurhur... i went in church wif a frown & i came out aLl sMiLiNg (= hehe... it was so fun loh! i went tonite cuz its a special youth mass... & it was really fun. the songs tonite were so lively & nice & i was singing so happily~ & i went up 2 the altar... hurhur.. all the youths n kids were asked 2.. but since it was a youth mass we all went up... we gathered round the table lahz.. den ther were these small kids in front... & dis small lil girl was singing the prayer so loudly! its was soo cute!!!! although she din really sing wIf us. but she was soo cute!!! my evening's been gReAt so far.... hope it stays lyk tt 4 as long as possible. hurhur...
lalalala--ai ni~
The Power Of Love
hold me close, let ur love surround me
bring me near, draw me to ur side
and as i wait i'll rise up lyk an eagle
and i will sore wif , ur spirit leads me on, in the power of ur love

dis was a song we sang in church juz nw... veh niceeee!!! hehehe
& juz nw went NTUC... purposely bought a lot of junk food... gonna kill myself.. hurhur...

writtern @10:11 PM

hmm.... sho tired... but dun feel lyk taking a nap... juz nw stayed back in skool 4 the racial harmony thingy... these few days nth much loh.. only projects & projects & projects loh..so fed up... oh.... i haf dis pic of diane(my neighbour)... she LOOKs so cute & matured!!! the outfit is lyk so rEtRo.. hahaz
take a look! -->  *pix taken away by order frm dIane:(*
it aws on friday... her skool de dance concert thingy... act veh nice..only some dances quite lame..hehe...

writtern @7:33 PM

YES!!! FINALLY!!! finally i can do my own stuff... 1 ting off my mind liaoz.. my sketches r settled.. thanks 2 chein... nw only the speech still cnnt confirm cuz of the powerpoint & dunno wad lahz...arghhh... my eyes can hardly open liaoz.. damn tired.. i whole day din even get 10mins rest loh... kaoz. after skool end at 2... den went library 2 search a new speech... stayed ther until lyk 3.30... den rush hme... tuition at 4.. went in 20 mins late??? oh... & ther's a new gal! YAY!! finally..hehe... she's frm SAS & taiwan... quite friendly.. outspoken lah.. den after tt english tuition had 2 rush back hme 4 a quick dinner. only had lyk 15-20 mins 2 eat??? btw i din even haf lunch.. so ta-han until 6.15 lohz... den rush 2 chi tuition... late again lohz...yea.. den was alomst fallin aslp in class...den reach hme at 9.30? yea... den do da stpd speech day thingy again lahz.. until nw lohz... haiz... my eyes can bArElY open... & i havent even stArtEd learning ting xie!!! AHH!!! die liao lahz...

writtern @9:49 PM

brr... its so cold todae...not really sunny.. juz rained...y din it rain in the morning instead?! den i wun hafta stand in front of the whole darn skool saying the stpd pledge...ugh... it was lyk so embarassing... ughhh...ahhhh... i feel lyk screaming...ok..i dun need 2 fEeL lyk screaming.. i juz screamed. hehe. lucky only my maid at hme... haiz...so much things 2 do lehz.. y dis term suddenly so bz de...ughhh... firstly i juz cancelled my organ lesson todae 4 netball...feel so bad.. everytime hafta cancell cuz of sth else.. den summore wen we finally get a date den i also nv practise & play so bad summore. haiz.. die arh... da stooopid speech day how??? hafta come out wif a costume & sketch it out by Fri... & i dun haf time lohz!!! kaoz.. firstly they havent even confirm their stpd speech..i tink deicded on the caeser speech.. they betta not change again kz! but wad costume 4 tt?? tt time..dunno way back into wad date...ughhh den calvin also wun wanna wear wadeva costume i give him...i feel lyk strangling daniel... cldnt he find a mOre interesting speech?!?! lee kuan yew's speech on marrying japanese women?!?! wad the... ughhh.. pathetic sia... & tmr i haf tuition lyk frm 4-9 in the nite??? where got time 2 do!!! muz study 4 chi spelling on fri summore! by the time i come back frm tuition i wanna slp liao lohz...ARGHHH!!! thnx 2 diane's concert lah.. make me so stressed... haha..jk...i go ther support u lahz... =) see me den can dance betta rite... haha... den the stpd chi project.. we havent really completed it... & dunno how 2 do.. ARGHH!!!! y so many projects?!! damn it! AAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!
hehe.. doing sum 'girl talk' wif lydia... hey gal.. u betta keep all that i told u a secret kz!!! U BETTA!!! kk... =D trust u arhhhh!!!

writtern @6:09 PM

ahh... juz took a nice, long hot bath... feelin so damn gd...
haiz... i slept thru the whole afternoon!!! AHHHH!!!! cant believe it!! i slept frm 3.15 to 6!!! dunno y todae suddenly so tired loh... i lyk nEvEr slps in the day...i put my alarm at 4.30...i was half awake... den fell bac 2 slp...hehe. nw still feel veh tired lehz.. esp. my eyes... lyk so heavy... haiz... juz nw b4 i slp...i even..hAiz.. i dunno y these daez been tinking abt it... haiz....
tmr im the pledge taker... damn tt mr wong! out of 40 pupils muz choose me 2 be one of them! kAoz!!! arghyyyy!!! as if i dun hate him enuff liaoz!!! idiotic freak!!! how u wan me 2 stand in front of the whole skool & say the damn pledge!!! ughhhh!!!!!!!

writtern @7:47 PM

juz came back frm orchard... finally bought a new bag... was looking high & low fer 1...roxy de... but green lehz... i kinda liked it lah...the green quite sweet...& can match our skool uniform too =) oh mann... i hate green... but wad the heck... our stpd skool uniform is green. argh. nw tt ive bought it.. the more i look at it, i find it not so nice liaoz. lol. so fast getting sick & bored of my nEw bag. oh mann... haiz...i predict tmr u guys sure say veh ugly de... cuz green...hehe. but heck! i cant find any other bag.
todae i skipped cathecism class in church.. hee...bad gal yea?but not my fault i cldnt wake up... was too tired cuz last nite got guests here...& victoria came...it was kinda a 'close galz nite' we shared some stuff... ok.. not WE, but victoria did. i cant believe it! quite scary wad she did.. i certainly wun dare...we had a pretty fun time, juz the 2 of us...oh! & we danced 2 the indian movie on central! =) we both were problem-stressed so we decided juz anyhow dance 2 lyk kinda release stress? actually at first tot quite stpd.. but i still juz danced.. den she joined me... & it was so fun! i juz lurveeee tamil shows. the best part of the nite was us becuming sisters! =) she becam my 'jie'... actually we aready so close... i tink kinda grew up together... but anyway still becum my jie.. hehe. *vicky~ gd luck kz? & cheer up* ;) oH yEa!!! last nite VANESSA CAME AGAIN!!! ok... im not really so excited abt it nw... wasnt quite in the mood 2 play wif her & entertain her...i cant juz cheer myself up 2 play wif a kid. esp. wen we were sharing gal stuff. nw i feel not paying attention 2 her... in fact i wasnt giving her ANY attention at all.. wasnt in the mood 2 go chase after her. so rite nw i cant sa how cuteeeee she is.. but she still is cute lahz =) den they all left at 12.30am... so slept quite late... haiz... todae was worst. haiz... i shld juz go hide in my rm & nv come out den i wun hafta face the world. juz life juz kinda sucks.

writtern @5:29 PM

yesh! finally juz finished blocking my whole contact list! rite now not 1 person is unblocked... i only plan 2 unblock sum ppl... wait till they online den unblock...i dun feel lyk toking 2 any1 tts y...feel lyk hiding in a corner... haiz...if u see me online den u betta tok 2 me horz..u special arh... 4 those who r reading this & dun see me online sry horz. aNyway my dae was quite alrite... trying 2 lighten up n find some usefullness in my life. after tuition i helped my dad wif the gardening. which i havent done since... erm... last yr??? i noe i havent been guai... hehe. usually my maid helps him... but she's bz helping my mom wif dinner... later victoria & her parents soming 4 dinner... so i helped my dad in cleaning the pond... it was lyk sOo dirty & disgusting! the sucker fish muz haf been slacking... & the filter was dirty also... so i kinda helped him..act all i did was stand a distance away frm him & the pond cuz its was so dirty i din wanna get wet & dirty. & he was stepping in the pond! so gRoss! but the fishes swam round his legs... so cute.. so i juz helped him get stuff...& switching the switch on & off wenever he needs it. see! i CAN do sth in my life! =) den my mom was going 2 Novena mass... den i juz tagged along todae. guess i wanted 2 go ther 2 pray 2 help wif the following week... i tot i really needed 2 pray... btw everyweek my mom asks whether i wanna go, i give excuses & dun wanna go...so ive been bad.. hehe. den todae go ther sing sing pray pray.. feel betta...juz hope my prayer is heard. den after novena i helped my mom wif her Tiramisu which she's making 4 some charity thingy... see! im quite helpful ard rite... i feel helpful todae. =) anywaez victoria here liaoz.. sitting beside me =) gtg ciao~

writtern @7:00 PM

hAiz...sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad. todae the '20 qns' game was fun(sad)... my mood was lyk ok(sad)... until ACE period wen we had free period(sad)... den i was chatting wif ronald(sad)...and nw i dun haf anymore secrets liaoz(sad)...i tink only 1 left wif myself tt no 1 noes(sad). actually it feels betta after tellin ur problems 2 some1... anyway i was juz soughting his help(sad)...den u galz keep tinking until dunno where(sad)... haiz(sad)... wanna tok 2 him also cnnt(sad).. but tt wasnt the reason i cried ok(sad)...i was juz telling ron abt it(sad)... so i was juz tinking abt it(sad)... den i juz cried loh(sad)...haiz...shldnt haf told ron abt it(sad)... den i wun even be so... wun tink abt it tt badly(sad)... haiz(sad)... the tot is juz haunting me n im so scared(sad)... haiz...feel lyk crying again nw... crying helps... will feel betta after it... but damnnit the tears juz wun come out.. i wanna cry all out.. i wanna forget abt it all... i dun wanna tink abt it at all...ARGHHHHHHH
haiz... later got chinese tuition.. i dun wanna write compo!!! i in no mood 2 tink.. i juz wanna rot my brain & decompose... im such a failure... im pathetic. im hopeless. im useless. im juz a waste of everything. hAiz...

writtern @5:06 PM

haiz...no diff todae...only towards the ending den i lighten up a bit...i am such a pathetic freak...haiz... & how da hell do we do the stpd lit poem??? im so freakin fed up wif everything i cld juz curse in front of the computer! arghhhhhhhhhh.... muz control... ive areadi been naughty enuff i dun wanna becum worst. i sound lyk a little child here. but y does everything hafta happen on me??? WHY??? y is my fate so terrible.. why... haiz... thers nth i can do abt it i guess... haiz...i feel lyk screaming.
-unintended-
You could be my unintended
Choice to live my life extended
You could be the one I'll always love
You could be the one who listens
To my deepest inquisitions
You could be the one I'll always love

writtern @6:34 PM

haiz.. dAmn sad arh....i hate skool! i hate my life! i hate myself... haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz haizhaiz haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz

writtern @9:38 PM

Every step I take, every move I make
Every single day, every time I pray
I'll be missing you
Thinkin of the days, when you went away
What a life to take, what a bond to break
I'll be missing you

haiz... finding the stooopid DnT pix... y muz we do dis... so useless. arghhhh... sickening tcr!!! first lesson give so much hw liaoz... arghyyyy... sian..y time past so fast de... i still got a lot of things 2 do sia... havent start.. & im supposed 2 pracitce my organ... almost 2 wks nv practice... haha... kinda fed up wif the harry potter sound... the speed so damn fast & i cant chatch up wif the chords. ahhh...
later i tink gonna meet my mom in town.. dunno 4 wad... i lazy 2 go out...haiz... i dunno wads wrong wif me...i tink i lyk treat him veh mean lyk tt(but im mean 2 every1 rite? hehe)... but...i dunno whether im treating them both differently.. but anyway it cant be anything cuz he juz needs a fren rite nw rite? yup. positive abt tt. oh.. & i dunno y but i tink justin always give me attitude lehz.. haha... maybe? nvm...den we both also show attitude. hehe. i juz hope he doesnt read diz entry. haha. anyway he prob. wun...unless kerrick sees dis & tells him abt it. arghhhh... sickening kerrick...btw i cldnt see the code. tOo bad...

writtern @3:21 PM

i feeeel gd! nanananananana... hahaz... juz came back frm church mass... the songs tonite were so gd... & i sooo admire that guy playing the piano! he damn pro can...ther was once wen dis gal was saying a pray.. den within 5secs he juz played along w/o any scoresheet... nv play b4 de. he juz on the spot make up himself & it was nice... so damn pro! if only i can play organ tt well sia.. haiz...
tmr i hafta go orchard find new skoolbag... hope i can find 1... i dun lyk going shopping purposely 4 sth. esp bags. i veh fussy de. haha...oh sorrie kim.. i used 'de' again... i noe im cheenaah wadeva tt means..haha. but i really not so chinese-sy. haha. ahhhh!! gotta eat dinner liaoz... my mom tried making her 'rack of lamb' which was bought all the way frm australia 2 back here. & she says its a disaster. haha. first-timer.. oh mann.. does diz mean i hafta starve thru the nite???ahhh!!! dawn!!! help me tink of back-up plan B!!! hahaz... (btw red cross is pathetic. =P)

writtern @5:55 PM

wahhh... eat until damn full... juz had my lunch and dinner. all thnx 2 the stooopid SYF lohz.. but it was fun lahz.. haha. we werent let off 4 lunch... den end so late den hafta come all the way back 2 skool... argh. i juz found out lydia was dancing in the syf juz nw.. hahaz. bet she was the shortest ther. hehe. anyway she wun read my blog lah.. she dis type of fren... so even if i criticse her here also nvm de. hahaz blehhh=P haha...cant believe kerrick they all believed him.. hahaz. tOo bad.. missed tt chance... haha... l.o.s.e.r.s... haha...arghhhhh my hp spoil!!! ahhhh!!!!!!!!!! wad's wrong wif it?!?! hey... dis phrase sounds familiar!!! "yoyoyo yo cyndi! wad-wad's wronf wif me!" lol... ai ni~

writtern @9:51 PM

*yawn* so tired.... juz came back frm chi tuition... last nite slept at 2am den after skool got netball summore... i stayed up doing the stoopid chi project & hw.. den u noe wad? tt idiotic absurd moronic ridiculous stpd irritating Mr Wong(bet u guessed it areadi wif my descriptions) entended the due date. i feel lyk killing him!!!! i wanna cry liao lah! i din do so much hw cuz of the stoopid project & he tells me dun need pass up. kAoz!!! i feel lyk stranggling him & punching him & digging out his eyeballs and..and... ARGH!!! wAdEvA.. sIcKeNiNg PiGg!!!
I CANT WAIT 4 SYF TMR!!! i juz found out Dawn's going wif her skool 2 watch too...she's gonna support her pathetic grp of red cross-ers. whahaha :P great news! tmr u guys still get 2 hear me sing again! =) ai ni~ im lyk so scared nw can... im alone upstairs here & my maid's downstairs.. no 1 else at hme.. & its lyk so quiet besides my com music... thnx 2 dawn lahz... she started the whole ghost stories thingy... & cuz we took bus back.. den hafta walk in mah.. & its lyk sOoO dark.. really VERY dark & quiet. & all the way we were sharing ghost stories... soo scary! & along the way we met some of dawn's cousins & frens... they were lizard, cockroach & a froggie. din noe dawn so 'popular' among her 'frens'. lol. shall stop here le.. gotta haf supper.. hehe. nitez

writtern @10:34 PM

o baby
qing hua suo duo yi dian
ziang wo jiu duo kan yi yan
bian xian duo yi dian dian
rang wo neng zheng de kan jian
gdbye sao suo yi dian
xiang pei ni bu zhi yi tian
duo yi dian rang wo xing gan qing yuan
ai ni

the song is sooo niceee!!! hehe... cant stop singing...hmm... juz nw got eng tuition..finally a gal joined! yay! im not the only gal liaoz~ but hor.. tt gal i dun tink our age... dun look singaporean also... & she's a lot more matured also.. look at her clothes... er...& she quite chio also sia... veh tall 1... & i also juz found out tt chu xian(another classmate) is taking part in dis yr's SYF also.. he's in ncc shoot shoot the gun. lol. i cant imagine him in ncc uniform! hehe...& he came late.. den sit RIGHT beside me. i was lyk erm.. soo uncomfortable can... & i cant stand his look... argh. wen he came sat beside me ritez.. he kept looking at my paper. arghyyy. today took height & weight.. ahhhh i tink i shrunk! im 149 only!!!! AHHH!!! still so short! :'( weight 39 kg... haiz...by hook or by crook i muz be taller den XY! arghhh... haiz.. so stress nw sia. .skool juz started.. kaoz... so much hw 2 do by tmr! die!!! i havent file my chinese file & i dun even noe where my worksheets r!!! ahhh!!! & the stooopid chinese project!!! ahhh!!! im lyk soo dead loh! haizzzz... AI NI~ lol. i listen 2 the song den gd mood again. hehe.. i shan't stop singing! too bad fer u guys! :P
p.s. VANESSA LOOKS SOOO CUTEEE!!!!! Cutie cutie~

writtern @6:23 PM